衰隱

最後一通電話掛斷了之後 杳無音訊

這樣沒有關係

反正我有著剛毅的人格

如果你想這麼殘忍

我也會咬緊牙根

我也想見識自己有多麼衰隱

我要的解構美

法國當代思潮巨擎羅蘭巴特
我在研究所第一年就發表了一篇研究分析他的小論文
當時的課程是符號學，別說你不懂什麼是符號學，連期末拿90分的我也不了解這個學問
我覺得用符號學的角度去認識這位思想家是可惜的

我把戀人絮語重讀了一遍之後，有這樣一個感慨
第二次讀這本書讓我有從來沒讀過的感覺
這個時侯的巴特一點不像我在符號學裡認識的他

無疑的是 我受他解構主義的影響是很深的
包括在欣賞或分析美的事物上面
一張美麗的照片
一段詭異的畫面
一本精彩的小說
一條優雅的旋律
或是 動人如你的這個人

我喜歡讀攝影集
老實說我排斥全然直接的表現方式
這和我喜歡的音樂完全相反
音樂我認為必須要直接了當
音符與音符之間就要互相較勁，沒有保守和保留空間

攝影
如果一拍見血，那一點都不浪漫而且粗魯
攝影就是要讓人有想像空間

攝影集不能有文字
是一本只能有圖沒有任何文字破壞
序或推薦文都是累贅
只有我能為這本攝影集下文字，那是屬於我的詮釋
而不是攝影家影響我的思考(無意也罷)

你不仿翻翻看俄國攝影家塔可夫斯基的Instant Light: Tarkovsky Polaroids
拍立得的極限還不只如此！

關於愛情 一

相較於法式熱吻，固然激情又誘惑

但我更喜歡親對方的鼻子

這是我對於對方的忠誠與愛護

像狼一般

Helene Grimaud

用Helene Grimaud重新開始這個網誌是個很美好的方法。

這位法國鋼琴家，雖然40歲，但她筆下的自傳，足以媲美任何一本自傳，死前或死後出版的。

她外表美麗、內心浪漫，她所有的東西都是美麗的，你所看到的長相或你所讀到的內心

但讀完她的自傳之後，我深刻認為她的心理世界之龐大與浩瀚還不足她自己所描述的萬分之一

於是讀完的那一刻，除了起了疙瘩之外(是被征服的那一種)，就是失望。

失望的是我覺得不夠，我想要聽更多她的故事以及她伊蓮似偏執浪漫的自白。

怎麼就這樣結束了呢? 我真的不想離開這本書。

所以我一而再再而三聆聽她的演奏作品，試圖將她留在我的身邊。

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在某種程度上，

我的大部分像極了她的一部分，

那種極度浪漫、偏執與憤世嫉俗。雖然她的比我嚴重很多。

但讀她就好像在找我自己一樣。

她努力用各種方式尋找自己，自己的方法亦或上天的安排，她試著掙脫，從她弱小的身軀裡頭

這弱小的身軀裡頭藏著一個諾大的靈魂，她掙扎地掙脫，最後她也辦到了。

從自殘、音樂、鋼琴、拉赫曼尼洛夫、布拉姆斯到憂鬱症、自閉，最後是那隻名為阿拉瓦的母狼

她終於找到她所要的那個人：她自己。

一路看來，她內在的掙扎，比任何一部史詩都還要難以承受。

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這本書：Variations Sauvages, Helene Grimaud

New Soul by Yael Naïm

Yael Naïm, a lovely female singer from Paris, presents the top-of-the-line voice ever. I adore her not just for every half-lazy-half-dreamy note she makes but for the vigor she brings to her songs. No doubt! Her laziness brings strength and nostalgia as well. This time, New Soul is for me, anyone who visits this page and also for our country. Wish my new soul opens a new eye to the new world in Australia.
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I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake
La, la, la, la (21x) La, la, la, la (21x)

See I'm a young soul in this very strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout what is true and fake
But why all this hate? try to communicate
Finding trust and love is not always easy to make
La, la, la, la (21x) La, la, la, la (21x)

This is a happy end Cause you don't understand
Everything you have done
Why's everything so wrong
This is a happy end
Come and give me your hand
I'll take you far away
I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

New soul... (la, la, la, la,...)
In this very strange world...
Every possible mistake
Possible mistake
Every possible mistake
Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes...

Tokyo to be continued

I am definitely the last one who's crazy for Japanese stuff, from romance to cartoon or music. Buta yes I'm heading for that city where I ain't in love with but may be after the backpacking. Whatsover, i'm expecting the coming of July 10 when i'm flying to Nippon. I'd be there with an empty mind without any bias toward the dense city and return with overflows of memory and stunners. Please wow me! Tokyo!

The Book Thief: I Steal, Therefore I Am

If you expect to realise more about Nazi Germany or the Holocaust by reading a novel, “The Book Thief”, a whimsical piece far different from what Markus Zusak has created before, may be a letdown albeit that it is set in Molching, the ground zero of Nazism, during the Hitler Era. “The Book Thief” is, dare I say, more than that of seeking to elucidate the ins and outs of the Nazi’s brutality or to call for animadversion upon the Swastika. However, I must confess that I had the book untouched on my teak bookcase for several dawns and dusks after it’d been released. My scepticism towards “The Book Thief” is inevitable since I am a broad reader of diverse books concerning the Holocaust and naturally sceptical about whether the seeming cliché lying on the bookshelf would be bestowed with novelty.


But “The Book Thief” itself attests to the originality of what Zusak has campaigned to do. First, the story is narrated by Death, the Grim Reaper you have known very well as he behaves in Elie Wiesel’s “Night,” one of his trilogy in the Holocaust, colluding with war to shed innocent blood. However, it is not the case here. Zusak reverses the impression that Death used to leave in our minds. Death confides, just in one of many scenarios when he has a chance to conciliate his readers, that “to me, war is like the new boss who expects the impossible,” forcing him to carry on with expiry of human beings. The boss will never be fulfilled but only ask for more. “You see?” Death says with commiseration and sentiment after he grants the last breath to Rudy Steiner, the Heroine Liesel Meminger’s closest friend. "Even death has a heart."


Among other highlights, “The Book Thief” is Zusak’s audacious and imaginative headwork which leads the whimsy-whamsy to a tear-jerker. Liesel Meminger, traumatised nine-year-old heroine, is the one we are grieving for. All spring from "The Grave Digger's Handbook," the first book that Meminger stole. It not only guides gravediggers to grave-digging success but, most importantly, opens a gateway for the book thief (viz. Meminger) to her love affair with words which are the link to knowledge. With words, she finds she does exist. During the hours reading with her foster father, the genial accordionist Hans Hubermann, words, which she used to lack but now is acquiring, are the only consolation for the disappearance of her mother and the demise of her little brother. But she does more. By reading the Führer's “Mein Kampf,” she also shares her love with a Jewish man, Max Vandenburg hidden by the Hubermanns family. While Adolf Hitler manipulates words to propagandise power and inflict havoc, Meminger employs words to heal anguish and brace people’s heart. We are overwhelmed by words.


“The Book Thief” is winding, roundabout and verbose tale punctuated with analepsis and prolepsis. However I don’t adore it the less for the meandering writing. It will be and should be widely read for the sake of the treasure of words. By way of this, let words tell for themselves!

Lick Shots by Santino feat. Howardamb

If u r fans of PJRW and u won't forget there's a contestant who has an air of haughty aloofness. His name is Santino Rice. No matter how arrogant he is, we (at least me) can NOT deny that he's a talented fashion designer. But he is more than that. In his final runway show in PJRW season 2 finale, he first showed his musical brilliance of creating his own background music. I personally quite love that but someone may think it plain. Then he collaborated with Howardamb for Missy Elliot song, "Lick Shots". The genre is the last kind of music I'd listen to - hip hop including lots of heavy and creaky raps. Whatsover he's still a special character.

奕庭- my nephew, do u get taller?

Some words for my nephew to tell him, he can't know though, that his uncle is missing him much. Such an innocent child is apart from us due to his parents' unfortunate marriage. It's been long, too long to figure out exactly how long, since last time I hugged him and we had simles to each other. His naive smile and naughtiness just can't stop showing in my mind. I hope he also remember his only uncle's kindness and great harbour of love and affection to him. Never ever forgetting!

PH Island Explorer

The beauty and wonder in the island is beyond words. I just have no ability to come up with a word to describe how fantabulous place it is. Whatsover pictures tell all and I left my heart in there.

The final result of Cave's book review contest has been announced

http://myurl.com.tw/1i67
As title, the result has been announced and fortunately I am the champion. Winning the challenge is not an end of learning but the opening to keep learning. On May 16, there will be an awarding ceremony at Chaoyang U of Technology and it's a great honor for me to be invited.

My luck leads me to win Cave's book review contest ranked #1 in FJU

Yes, I won the Cave's book review contest ranked #1 in FJU. That means I am into national final. But actually my winning is, to some extent, a good luck. This winning book review is Night without light; A doubt of God, which you can read form my previous article. My review is inspired by Elie Wiesel's NIGHT, a great novel or memoir, if you put it that way of memoir genre, about Nazi holocaust. And now I'm waiting for the final result, which the ultimate winner is chosen amongst semifinalists' reviews from ten colleges.

Renée Fleming in Taipei: I have an affair with Fleming's voice

I have an affair with Fleming's voice.

I was in NCH immersing in Fleming's unbelievably beautiful voice. I didn't list her as one of my favorite sopranos untill I heard her fantabulous performance last night. She is amazingly skilled in controlling every note to its best and perfect place. The every aria she performed last night has its most breathtakingly wonderful realisation ever.

Plus Fleming's superb controlling her breath also impressed me a loooooot. Particularly speaking, ''Vissi d'arte, vissi d'amore,'' the very famous aria from Puccini's ''Tosca'' is the one that dazzled me most. From the lowest note to the highest one, my mood fluctuated as well. I'd say I have an affair with Fleming's voice.

Night without Light: A Doubt of God

After reading Night of Elie Wiesel, we might find it short and also explicit in writing. Nonetheless it is much more difficult to fathom the whole spirit in the work than we think. Although Night is not necessarily a memoir, I still treat the work as one, since the every aspect we can see in the book makes itself a similarity of the works in the memoir genre. To the greatest extent, Eliezer, the protagonist, is the representative of the author Elie Wiesel himself. Indeed what happened to Eliezer is almost exactly what happened to Wiesel during the tragedy. Nevertheless Wiesel varies minor parts so as to space a distance between him and the protagonist. Undoubtedly, what he has suffered during the genocide is too horrifying to be imagined by those who have never ever undergone, not to mention that he, as the Holocaust survivor, is to remind and write about his story. Therefore he makes this distance to keep himself away somewhat from the traumata and pangs of writing the memoir.

When the memoir begins, Eliezer, a Jewish teenager, is ripped by Nazis from his hometown of Sighet in Hungarian Transylvania. On his way to ‘Night’, Eliezer starts to doubt his faith in a benevolent God. He wonders why God never intervenes to save the innocent people who are ‘selected’ by Nazis to be killed immediately. Particularly in one scene where, at Buna, the Gestapo hangs a young boy, a man then asks, “Where is God?” The only answer is nothing but silence. We, as readers, may think of a well-known story from the Hebrew Bible – the Binding of Isaac (Genesis 22). In the Akedah, Abraham sacrifices his only son, Isaac, to prove his faith to God who does not send an angel to save Isaac until Abraham lifts a knife to kill his son. Totally unlike the God in the Akedah, the God in Night always shows his silence and allows Nazis to shed innocent blood. From now on, Eliezer is losing his belief in God and struggles to retain his faith in Him.

As I’ve mentioned earlier, the short-volume work is never easy to discern its deepest thought. It raises many huge questions, the likes of skepticism about God and inhumanity towards humanity. The writer never depicts any hint to cast a meaningful answer towards those big questions and the readers seek for any hint of light. However neither Eliezer nor Wiesel has light during Holocaust (may be still none aftermath). At this point, I think that searching for the answer is no longer desperate. Instead, I believe that Wiesel expects his readers to remember not only the historical event but the emotional truth about the Holocaust bringing endless ‘nights’ to experienced individuals. Remembering is the urgent task which helps us tackle the problems and alerts us to change unrighteousness and unfairness. Now that night is without light, we are charged to shed light.

Aussie's 100 favourite Mozarts

The following list is top favorite 100 of Mozat's pieces voted by Australians under the questionnaire of ABC.au.You can access to here to listen again how Aussie think of these masterpieces. Enjoy!

Clarinet Concerto in A K622 - Adagio (you are listening to this piece)
Ave Verum Corpus K618
Piano Concerto No.21 in C K467 - Andante
Così fan tutte K588 - Soave sia il vento
Requiem K626 - Lacrimosa
Vesperae solennes de confessore K339 - Laudate Dominum
The Magic Flute K620 - Der Hölle Rache kocht
Serenade 'Gran Partita' in B flat K361 - Adagio
Piano Concerto No.23 in A K488 - Adagio
Exsultate Jubilate K165 - Allelujah
Clarinet Concerto in A K622 - Allegro
Marriage of Figaro K492 - Overture
Zaide K344 - Ruhe sanft, mein holdes Leben
Piano Sonata in A K331 - Alla Turca. Allegretto
Sinfonia concertante for Violin and Viola K364 - Andante
Concerto for Flute and Harp K299 - Andantino
Clarinet Concerto in A K622 - Rondo. Allegro
Eine kleine Nachtmusik K525 - Allegro
Symphony No.40 in G minor K550 - Molto allegro
Requiem K626 - Dies irae
Piano Concerto No.21 in C K467 - Allegro maestoso
Piano Concerto No.20 in D minor K466 - Romance Streicher
Clarinet Quintet in A K581 - Larghetto
Marriage of Figaro K492 - Dove sono i bei momenti
Requiem K626 - Requiem aeternam
Symphony No.41 in C K551 'Jupiter' - Molto Allegro
Marriage of Figaro K492 - Voi, che sapete
Horn Concerto No.4 in E flat K495 - Rondo. Allegro vivace
Don Giovanni K527 - Là ci darem la mano
Marriage of Figaro K492 - Finale
Eine Kleine Nachtmusik K525 - Rondo. Allegro
Violin Concerto in G K216 - Adagio
Eine Kleine Nachtmusik K525 - Romanze. Andante
Sinfonia concertante for Violin and Viola K364 - Allegro maestoso
Ah vous dirai-je, maman K265
Marriage of Figaro K492 - Sull' aria
Idomeneo K366 - Andrò ramingo e solo
Piano Concerto No.20 in D minor K466 - Allegro
The Magic Flute K620 - Der Vogelfänger bin ich ja
The Magic Flute K620 - Pa-pa-pa-geno (Finale)
Marriage of Figaro K492 - Porgi amor qualche ristoro
Concerto for Flute and Harp K299 - Allegro
Requiem K626 - Confutatis
Symphony No.25 in G minor K183 - Allegro con brio
Symphony No.40 in G minor K550 - Allegro assai
Piano Concerto No.23 in A K488 - Allegro assai
Don Giovanni K527 - Finale
The Magic Flute K620 - Bei Männern, welche Liebe fühlen
Piano Concerto No.27 in B flat K595 - Allegro (III)
The Magic Flute K620 - In diesen heil'gen Hallen
Clarinet Quintet in A K581 - Allegro
Concerto for Flute and Harp K299 - Rondeau. Allegro
Piano Sonata in C K545 - Allegro
The Magic Flute K620 - Overture
Rondo for Piano and Orchestra K382
Requiem K626 - Kyrie eleison
Requiem K626 - Agnus Dei
Concerto for two Pianos K365 - Rondeaux. Allegro
Requiem K626 - Tuba mirum
Don Giovanni K527 - Overture
Sinfonia concertante for Violin and Viola K364 - Presto
Piano Sonata in A K331 - Tema. Andante grazioso
Mass in C K317 'Coronation' - Agnus Dei
Serenade 'Gran Partita' in B flat K361 - Largo
Requiem K626 - Rex tremendae
The Magic Flute K620 - Dies Bildnis ist bezaubernd schön
Sonata for two Pianos K448 - Andante
Requiem K626 - Benedictus
Requiem K626 - Communio
Don Giovanni K527 - Madamina! Il catalogo
Requiem K626 - Domine Jesu
The Magic Flute K620 - O Isis und Osiris
Fantasia in D minor K397
Il Rè pastore K208 - L'amerò, sarò constante
Mass in C minor K427 - Credo
Andante for Flute and Orchestra K315
Clarinet Quintet in A K581 - Allegretto con Variazioni
Don Giovanni K527 - Deh, vieni alla finestra
Marriage of Figaro K492 - Non più andrai farfallone
Piano Concerto No.27 in B flat K595 - Larghetto
Symphony No.41 in C K551 'Jupiter' - Allegro vivace
Serenade 'Gran Partita' in B flat K361 - Romanze
Piano Concerto No.23 in A K488 - Allegro
Don Giovanni K527 - Il mio tesoro intanto
Violin Concerto in G K216 - Allegro
Piano Sonata in C K545 - Andante
Mass in C minor K427 - Et incarnatus est
Piano Concerto No.24 in C minor K491 - Larghetto
Mass in C minor K427 - Kyrie
The Magic Flute K620 - Ein Mädchen oder Weibchen
Rondo for Piano in A minor K511
Piano Concerto No.15 in B Flat K450 - [Andante]
Abduction from the Seraglio K384 - Overture
Don Giovanni K527 - Finch' han dal vino
The Magic Flute K620 - Ach, ich fühl's
Piano Concerto No.17 in G K453 - Allegretto
Piano Concerto No.15 in C K415 - Allegro (III)
Piano Concerto No.17 in G K453 - Andante
Abduction from the Seraglio K384 - Ha! Wie will ich triumphieren
Adagio for Piano K540

Museum of Tomorrow

On January 4 Museum of Tomorrow is open!!!!! PPAPER and JUT cooperate to build an unprcedented 24-hour open museum in Taipei named Museum of Tomorrow. This museum is more than that! Its goal is to heal people's sickness in mind and fill up our spiritual hollowness. The first programme is coming from Denmark's theFLOWmarket. "theFLOWmarket" was created for the purpose of provoking people to rethink our daily competetive life and unconcerned attitudes toward the world. Through his concept of pieces of works, the founder of theFLOWmarket attempts to warn people that we are living in an unusual world where is filled with competitiveness and that people's unfair treat to the whole environment. His devotion goes to only one aim: Make our environment sustainable and our tomorrows better!You have to have a visit!

New Year Countdown with Carreras

With José Carreras' heaven-born voice, '06 has gone and '07 has come. It's an unforgettable and fantabulous experience to be in Carreras' new year eve concert at the Taipei Arena at the very end of year 2006 and the very first of year 2007. To me it's high-class but not luxurious!With the coming of year '07, I've made some wishes. They should be untold because,as legend and convention go, wishes are secret or they won't be carried out. So I don't think I'll share my new year wishes. Anyway to seize the day and live on everyday as the last day of your life!

Paris, je t'aime

"Paris je T'aime" has been the most worth-watching movie in all others played recently in Taiwan. Composed by eighteen stories directed by eighteen directors, respectively, "Paris je T'aime" makes itself a very special movie that differs from others in style. Sometimes freaky, sometimes touching. Maybe romantic, maybe thought-provoking. It's all because it's given birth by eighteen directors with completely distinctive genres.This film reminds me another one - "Love Actually". But actually I prefer "Love" to "Paris" in that the former is British English. ^_^ Just teasing. To be honest, "Love" is more complete and unabridged for the sake of plot. Whatsover they are both beautiful and intriguing.

BBC's recommended programmes of mine

Recently I am hooked to Elaine's Programme on BBC radio 2. There is another must-listen programme on radio 4 named "Just a Minute" hosted by Parsons. They are my sweetest desserts in my so-far bitter graguate life. Let's forget the bitterness, the sweetness is always the one that we are dedicated to pursue. Well, Elaine's programme is all about musicals or to be exact, Broadway.

Broadway has been my preference of musicals, especially for its type of music, i.e. theme songs of each famous Broadway musical, one of which is Déchire from Notre Dame de Paris which is also one of my favorite. Masquerade from The Phantom of The Operais much appreciated (at least by me). They are more and more and all in the list of CLASSIC. So, if any of you is appealed to it or my words arouses a little of your concerns or curiosities of it, then you may be happy to spare som time to listen to Elaine Paige on BBC radio two.

Another one that I have listened for long is Nichola Parsons's Just a Minute. As introduced by its title, every guset in the programme are given some successive topics and they hav the horrible task of speaking for one minute without hesitation or deviation by one of his school masters. It is soooooo hilarious to hear them breaking the rules! Though they speak in a very speedy speed (because they have to assert their ideas "in a minute") and thus gives rise to a lot of difficulty in understanding them, it is also a must-listen programme that I recommend much!

Euthanasia: of extrication or immorality?

It's requently reported that a mother asked for euthanatizing her son with brain paralysis so that both of them could extricate from the torture triggered by the incurable illness. I sympathize with the whole of what's happening to the mother and the son but I am concerned a lot more about the controversial issue, EUTHANASIA.

Rregardless of a cluster of discussions about euthanasia in light of morality, emotion or policy, can anyone imagine that somewhere out there has circumstances that one's life is exterminated for s/he is perceived as living an intolerable life, in a painless or minimally painful way either by lethal injection, drug overdose, or by the withdrawal of life support? Brain dead patients are often euthanatized under the request of their family. But the question is aroused that the life belongs to its life owner (i.e. the patients) and the decision of whether they wants to get over their life can and should only be made by themselves. Although the patients are unable to make any decision due to their being ill, nobody is given the authority to decide for them!

Some social groups are seeking ways to legalizing acts such as the Rights of the Terminally Ill Act, passed by Australia's Northern Territory in 1995, and nullified in 1997 by the federal Parliament while other organizations of human rights strongly oppose against it. Probably it's no longer of importance to discuss about whether or not one government should legitimatize any euthanasia act, instead we, as members of the globalized society, had better introspect and think about if we can substantially provide extra and extensive support to those minorities. This is exactly what they need. Think about it!

Last but not least, keep in mind that more cares, less calamity!

My list of songs YOU SHOULD NOT MISS

1. Los Amantes - Ana D / Recordando
2. Heart Like a Wheel - The Corrs / Home
3. Nothing Compares 2 U - Sinéad O'Connor / I Do Not Want What I Haven't Got
4. Thank You for Hearing Me - Sinéad O'Connor / Universal Mother
5. I Dreamt I Dwelt in Marble Halls - Meav / A Celtic Journey
6. The Days are Long and Filled with Pain -
Niina Susanna Rinne & Maximilian Hecker / Infinitive Love Song
7. Dying - Maximilian Hecker / Lady Sleep
8. Set the Fire to the Third Bar -
Snowpatrol features with Martha Wainwright / Eyes Open
9. Manchester - Superbi / The Beautiful South
10. Beautiful Close Double - Damon & Naomi / The Earth Is Blue


And a lot more, stay tuned.